Today was one of those days where pretty much nothing worked out. During free block, one of my classmates told me that she opted for paper-based application for Early Decision instead of Common App, because CA locks all your information after you submit it to one institution. So I thought, why not, I’ll reprint the forms for my ED choice directly from their website… but the forms were a lot more complicated than the Common App one and I was worried that there’d be more room for my teachers to emphasis… my weaker areas. So AFTER printing all the forms and filling half of them out, I decided to switch BACK to Common App x.x.

Then, someone else decided to show me their resume for the teacher recommendation letters. When I saw how much better and more organized it was compared to mine, I was utterly devasted. Why can’t I even put in enough efforts to write a good resume?! What happened to working so hard in grade 8-10?! I don’t understand why it’s so difficult for me to make it past this final stretch and I can’t believe I just broke down crying in French.

I spent the rest of the afternoon chasing down teachers to give them forms for recommendation letters. My locker currently looks like a shelf from Staples with the stack of envelopes, papers, forms, black pens, stamps, and paperclips lol. After school I had a meeting with my Extended Essay supervisor who was very unsatisfied with the first few pages of my 4000 word essay. She asked me, “how can you have such a convoluted introduction when you’re conclusion was so brilliantly and clearly done?!” I guess there are some silver linings in there, considering how rare it is for her to dish out compliments. Time to do the fourth overhaul edit of my essay >=(

The horrible day would’ve not left such a bitter after-taste had it ended there. But no… a friend told me that my TOK essay didn’t go through turnitin.com, and sure enough, when I checked the list posted, I was one of the two people out of 130 or so IBers who had a “no submission” for turnitin.com. I *swear* I uploaded the file… but I guess i just left the computer to run and didn’t bother do a double check. I was astonished to discover that I never got the electronic receipt turnitin usually sends after an upload. I mean… I’m NOT technologically-impaired! Yet this dreadful carelessness on my part will not only cost me huge deductions in participation, it will also prevent me from submitting this essay to IB (we have to submit 1 out of 4 TOK essay to an international marker). I guess I’d be amused if I got a 35/40 on this and end up having to submit my 27/40 essay because of stupidity.

So there ends my day. Incredibly frustrating and stressful. I have a Higher Level Math Portfolio due in 60 hours… AKDFJLADF!! Ta-ta. If you know anything about logistic function models do tell me. I can’t wait to be enlightened. My head is still spinning after doing that TOK presentation on the chaos theory, “non-linear dynamic systems with sensitivity to initial conditions”, dear God!

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